For a long time now, (to be precise since march last year) I have been rather subdued and rather soft-spoken and gentlemanly. So much so, that people have actually told me I have matured a little and have sobered up! What was perhaps worse was the fact that I felt I had and felt the need to sober up even more! Terrible times for me I tell you. Perhaps the worst part was the fact that the greatest indicator of my persona, my driving style had been completely altered…it was less risqué and more sober and safe. I had completely stopped speeding and almost always had begun driving with a lot more sense and responsibility!
And then this week happened…I was reunited with my love…my first love! Ever since last march I have been far far away from her so much so that I had completely forgotten what it was like to be with her! After an eternity I spent an entire week in her company, caring for her first and then taking her out every single day! And then tonight, I found myself all over again…more so after a meeting my old schoolmates. They just remind me of myself from a completely forgotten dimension! On the way back, when I was feeling really elated having had met them, I left with her. And that’s when I suddenly revved and found what I was missing all these days. The wind in my hair, the dust in my teeth…and the rush of driving on the edge! Ever since I left Pune last March, I have never been able to head off, without direction and care with my bike. I did so today… At midnight, after having bid my friends good night, when I suddenly felt the impulse to go off on a long drive… and I did. After long days, I did. Without a pre-emptive plan or destination I did. And I loved it… and I now know what it is that was missing and why I have been such a wreck…after an eternity of self loathing and confounded solitude, I feel rejuvenated…I feel like myself!
The good news: I have found my mad impulsive streak again…
The bad news: I will be driving like a maniac all over again!
The good news: I am back…
The bad news: I am back!
