The voices in my head are so damned loud

More often than not, they've drowned out the crowd

Before I've known it, they've started a din

And I've lost track of where I am or where I've been

Of the genius within, there's never really been a doubt
Just the narcissism and insanity that cast a cloud
Too good to be true and yet never really good enough
Never a conviction to live through the rough
In the safe haven of dreams is the place to hide from all the mistakes
So close your eyes, snigger to yourself and take another deep breath

Four songs on my playlist playing on infinitely
At least as infinite as the battery on my phone would let 'em be
3 am and not even a flicker of a yawn
Seems a shame to fall asleep at the crack of dawn
A walk on the beach seems like such a great plan
Soft strings of moonlight and the silken sounds of the waves would soothe any man
But heck I know I aint getting out
The voices in my head too have now stopped being loud

Too much coffee and a bloody long day
Some music in the background and words have found a way
So they march on out in random patterns tonight
Too long have they been chained and now it seems that time is write
One after another, the damned rhymes trickle out
Come in, hush them up now, before they really begin to scream and shout

Suddenly I'm scared as hell
Just a minute ago though, I was doing swell
Something about a dark and empty house, that scares the little kid in me still
Oh but I'm 27 now, I can conquer fears with my will
I don't think though, I'm really gonna be brave tonight
To feel ten again, somehow feels just right

In a new light...

Bombay’s a funny old place. It’s the city of dreams and if you’re at it long enough, it’ll give you what you want. Standing by the sea, after what seemed like an eternity, he gazed back at all that had been. He’d gotten where he’d wanted to be, in the corner office, in a penthouse, in an obscene car…even he had to admit, he’d already achieved his dream. The endless hours and the tiresome corporate lobbies had probably been worth it. He’d survived and survived well, he’d always been a survivor.
Any other day and he’d probably have been smiling smug with his thoughts and speeding away from there. Not today. Today he was preoccupied with gawking at her. She stood by the parapet staring into the sunset as the sea-breeze played softly with her hair. Arms folded, she held a stoic gaze that seemed to ward off even the pesky hawkers who hadn’t thought twice about pestering him thrice in the time he’d been standing here, staring after her.
He couldn’t remember the last time he’d stood as still for as long since he’d moved to Bombay. There was no buzzing Blackberry around to disturb him today, no urgent emails that’d tare his gaze away. He’d even watched on unperturbed as the cops had towed his car away with his prized material possessions locked within. Right at this moment, all he could think of was her. Rooted a distance away, he stood bewitched by her unflinching, uncompromising figure, calm and defiant against the last rays of sunlight fighting their way over the water to reach her.
He couldn’t fathom why he hadn’t seen her this way in 10 years.
He thought back to the night before and fiddled with the pen in his hand. The divorce papers would be the last bits of paper he’d be signing for some time to come.
Bombay’s a funny old place, it gives you what you want and then shows you what you should’ve wanted all along….




(An inspired story...the orignal is here)

If you really want it, brace yourself for a fight
Its gonna test all your wit, its gonna take all your might
You've gotta trip and fall before you get your wish
I promise it won't be easy, it never really is... 

Responsibilities that outnumber every wish
An unequal life is this...

Sometimes, I leave myself perplexed
I know what I should do but what I do instead leaves me vexed
Its as if I haven't had enough of all the times my honest intentions go astray
And I have to put my foot in my mouth, just when things are going my way

Was lost in what I was reading
Till I saw you standing there,
Been staring at you since
Lost in the curls of your hair...

When I see you smile
Your smile, my lips too slyly share,
I love being lost in you
And from a distance, at you I stare...