Many years, don't just pass away in as many days,
I've tried, so many things, in so many ways,
What has passed, I've wanted to make it the past,
For some reason, that I do understand, it will, forever last...
There've been gales, not just 'winds of change,'
Changing everything...but not this...and it isn't even strange,
I stand here, consumed, by all that has been,
The greatest joy...and the greatest sorrow, I've already seen...
I smile, the proverbial cover for my frown,
I know it doesn't fool anyone, they've all seen me drown,
I've probably hurt those that stand with me now,
Yet, everyday, they're still there, dunno why, dunno how...
I am alive, only when I dream,
It's always the same one, you...me...our feet in the stream,
I stand still, the world around me still moving forth,
They carry me along, for whatever they see worth...
I look up, the ones that matter seem hurt, yet for me, they still smile,
They've never left me alone, been there all the while,
I wanna reach out now, but it's almost too late,
I can see indifference in those eyes, neither love now, nor hate...
I look away, I go back to where it's still easy to hide,
It's just a memory...or maybe a dream...dunno...but you're still beside...
I've tried, so many things, in so many ways,
What has passed, I've wanted to make it the past,
For some reason, that I do understand, it will, forever last...
There've been gales, not just 'winds of change,'
Changing everything...but not this...and it isn't even strange,
I stand here, consumed, by all that has been,
The greatest joy...and the greatest sorrow, I've already seen...
I smile, the proverbial cover for my frown,
I know it doesn't fool anyone, they've all seen me drown,
I've probably hurt those that stand with me now,
Yet, everyday, they're still there, dunno why, dunno how...
I am alive, only when I dream,
It's always the same one, you...me...our feet in the stream,
I stand still, the world around me still moving forth,
They carry me along, for whatever they see worth...
I look up, the ones that matter seem hurt, yet for me, they still smile,
They've never left me alone, been there all the while,
I wanna reach out now, but it's almost too late,
I can see indifference in those eyes, neither love now, nor hate...
I look away, I go back to where it's still easy to hide,
It's just a memory...or maybe a dream...dunno...but you're still beside...
(Don't ask me why this is here...I dunno...Poems are just morose...like they say, 'Don't blame the player, blame the game!' I'm gonna quit writing poems soon...)
