Friday, December 14, 2012

The Journey to Nothingness

Its a long journey to a nothingness that awaits
Sometimes to me, it doesn't really make much sense
What is it that we trudge on for, what is it we think we'll get?
Do we really believe that there is hope for us, that another beginning shall be found at the end?

There are many milestones littered all along the path we walk
Many journeymen who like us carry on in the hope of gathering irrefutable wisdom
So why is it that we refuse to listen and learn? But choose instead to teach and talk?
And why is it that we can't fathom that wisdom awaits not along the path but right at the end?

Its a strange situation to have to find wisdom in nothing
To have to receive all of life's answers without a real choice
I suppose that's the reason we wanna get through every single day, no matter how rotten
To delay the darkness of the inevitable nothingness, to hold on to our emotions, our thoughts, our voice...

Yet, the further I get, the more human I realise I am and with each step, slower I wanna go
Taking time to give away more than I have been given, more than I have gotten
You may not agree with my thoughts on life and what I think I know
But it doesn't really matter, I'll be remembered long after you've been forgotten.

Wednesday, December 05, 2012

Pieces of My Life that I've Left in You

I can barely face you right now
Leave alone look you in the eyes,
I know no matter where I go
I wouldn't find happiness again even if I tried...
The best times of my life were in the moments I've spent with you
Yet here I stand thinking there's something else that means more,
I guess I've always been good at lying to myself
Maybe even after you, I'll be able to live with myself, just the way I had before...
I try to muster up the courage to speak
But the words swimming in my head can't find my voice,
Some part of me wonders why I still wanna do this now
And some part tells me I don't really have a choice...
I know I'm gonna spend a lifetime in regret
When I'm grey and older I'll realise I hadn't thought this through,
But maybe someday we'll be together again when I've found what I need
And maybe someday I'll be back, to collect the pieces of my life that I've left in you...