Friday, April 13, 2007

What is more important???

For the past umpteen days, I have been quarrelling with myself trying to establish which facet is more important towards leading a happy life. After all, im only gonna be living once and wouldn’t wanna waste the opportunity right? Is it important to pursue a CAREER or could you be happy just dong a JOB that pays you well? I think the eventual answer to this question would be the decision I take in pursuing my post-graduation.
What I can’t decide is whether it is more important to attain financial security or whether I might risk financial security for CAREER satisfaction. If I should choose to risk financial security and pursue a not-so-secure career in a field where my skills might be better utilised, would that be a wise move? Then again, if I am working at something that im good at (atleast relatively better than being the engineer I have turned out to be) I might actually be able to accomplish something significant (or atleast relatively more significant, you get the idea right?) and in the process also get rich. (Notice I didn’t say 'attain FINANCIAL SECURITY?' Hmmm...) Then again can I really suck off my love for writing so much as to be able to write just to earn big bucks? Could I write to meet deadlines and try to be creative just for the heck of it? Or maybe because I would be writing, I wouldn't find those deadlines to be as tedious or the creativity as sapping.
Maybe though, at the cost of being satisfied with my work, I wouldn’t be able to niche out a living (atleast not at the scale that this life as an engineer promises) Maybe I would lose out on the financial security that a fixed salary arriving at the end of every month in my bank account offers. After all, I couldn't eat happiness nor clothe myself with it...
Then again, all the money in the world couldn't contribute towards making me happy. The 8 to 12 hours that I would spend at work would only make me miserable. All my life I will always wonder "What if?" Should I gamble and go out all guns blazing and even if I fail, atleast live with the satisfaction of having given life my best shot, uncompromising and ambitious? Or should I just go with the flow and live out a happy Indian middle class life with the false financial security it has to offer?
I might have said it a million times before that money is not the driving force in my life. Yet, here I am debating the course I need to take my life through, my biggest concern ironically, being MONEY...

8 comments:

Saurabh said...

Hmm ...
Yeah - it's called getting used to the money - and its a pretty bad thing.

When I started seriously thinking of quitting my day job and starting up, I realised how scary this is going to be.
Not getting your bank balance incremented at the beginning of every month puts you out of your comfort zone. Especially when life was nice and merry for the past six months or so.

However, living your life with no regrets is the way to go.
You do not want to be 30 and wish you had made some different choices earlier in life.
Think about them, calculate the risks and take the plunge.
If it works out - brilliant and nothing like that.
If it doesn't, well, no regrets right? :)

Read this in a book - "What would you do if you were not afraid?"
The answer is the path to take.

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

yup saurabh,i thoroughly know what you mean...
thing is when i quit today, it was without any qualms and an immense sense of satisfaction...
what matters most is how you feel about something and not the money involved...or atleast id like to believe so...

Fangs said...

youve made your choice.
you're getting into capital markets.

Work hard, earn a lot and save a lot.

ten years later, quit.

and write.

and for right now, stop whining!

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

hahaha... fangs, thats the plan although ten years is too long a period man, id give myself five years tops... whatsay???

Angie said...

well i guess quite a few of us go thru this phase of choosing between our dreams n whts expected out of us as normal humans...
id say work hard earn loads n then pursue ur dream...creativity never dies wid age rite???
btw..nice blogs!!!

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

angie: hey thanks for reading through my blog... glad you liked what i write...
im not too sure about work hard and earn loads though, you see these years are the best years of my life and if im not able to utilise these years in doing what i really love, there is a possibility that my skills could be smothered by the drudgery of what i pursue to attain financial security...
lifes a gamble sometimes, you gotta learn to take calculated risks...

Angie said...

well hope ur permutations n combinations work well for u....
best of luk...
n i will keep myself posted here frm time to time...really like the way u write....

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

my permutations and combinations are never bound by logic but more so by way of an intuition... (not as powerful as womens intuition ofcourse but its carried me well so far...)
and thank you for visiting here, it feels good to be appreciated more importantly for me though, is criticism...