Vagaries of Youth

Vagaries of youth, that have carried us till now
Despite the odds, they've gotten us this far somehow
The hopes, the desires, the impulses and the foolish courage with which they fired us on
Through those tough, dark nights, till the crack of dawn
I fear though, that they have now begun to wane
As a cool calculated self replaces the insane
Though this is what I'd hoped I'd eventually become
When long ago, of my future I had dreamt once
And I've worked hard to be who I now am
As everything has been part of a carefully laid plan
But here I am with my plate full, unaware of what's falling off the side
And disconcertingly so, I seem to be taking it all in my stride
I wish I were apprehensive of what lies ahead
Instead of being filled with this confidence that fills my head
I wish I could dream again, of dreams that aren't seen by anyone
But I can't anymore, the vagaries of my youth are waning away, and I fear, they may soon be long gone....

Lying in my bed and I'm being driven mad
Thoughts running nineteen to the dozen and its another sleepless night for this lad
A dripping tap that's taken up tonight's musical chores
I was supposed to be dreaming by now, drifting away to distant shores
As ever though, when I'm reminiscing, everything seems to have been so good
Yet, I'm filled with this incessant desire to go back and redo it differently if I could
What's with this inane desire I wonder, to turn back time
When everything's good with me, this life is worthy of being mine
I guess its comforting to look back and tell yourself you're smarter than before
That if you had another chance to make a fool of yourself, perhaps now, you wouldn't be as sure
But you're still here, and you still can't see that you're making another mistake
So someday you can reminisce by yourself, when at 2 am, you lie wide awake.... 

Lying in my bed and I'm being driven mad
Thoughts running nineteen to the dozen and its another sleepless night for this lad
A dripping tap that's taken up tonight's musical chores
I was supposed to be dreaming by now, drifting away to distant shores
As ever though, when I'm reminiscing, everything seems to have been so good
Yet, I'm filled with this incessant desire to go back and redo it differently if I could
What's with this inane desire I wonder, to turn back time
When everything's good with me, this life is worthy of being mine
I guess its comforting to look back and tell yourself you're smarter than before
That if you had another chance to make a fool of yourself, perhaps now, you wouldn't be as sure
But you're still here, and you still can't see that you're making another mistake
So someday you can reminisce by yourself, when at 2 am, you lie wide awake.... 

I've been young for far too long
Growing up now, just feels so wrong
There must be a better way, to live this life
Than mundane days and a 9 to 5
I should've dreamt, better than I dared
Or perhaps for my dreams, better cared
Maybe some day, I'll finally understand
The truth of my ways, that right now I can't
And maybe make peace, with all that I left behind
When I dreamt of my life and then pretended I was blind....

Unendingly

That feeling you stoke in my heart, when your fingers are snuggled in mine
That warmth you spread within me, when you wrap your hand around my arm as we walk side by side.
That feeling you drown me in, when you look at me with love in your eyes.
That moment when I'm thinking of you, lying alone in bed, somewhere far away, and I realise, I love you, unendingly.