Out in the sea, an old fort stands,

Stories hidden, in those ruins and these sands,

Of wars waged in another age,

Some for love and maybe some in rage,

The tide now flows mellow, contrary to what it’s seen,

Violence and bloodshed and sacrifice that might have been,

Standing barefoot in my shorts, I can only wonder,

Of the grandeur of the days of yonder,

At the setting of the sun I pay a silent tribute,

Mere mortal that I am, my insignificant gesture done, with small shuffling steps, away I scoot…

There’s something hanging in the air,

I can’t make out what though I can feel it right out there,

Nothing no more seems to be the same,

Not even the way, I hear my name,

Something about it all, that doesn’t feel right,

And it’s taking all my courage, to not resist, not fight,

Winds of change sweeping through,

They tell me it’s good to welcome the new,

But everything feels strange n nothing feels mine,

It feels like I’m in a different place, in a different time,

As everything as I knew it, fades outta sight,

I’m hoping you’ll stay here with me, tell me, that it’s alright…

 

Do you know I quiver,

When I hold your hand in mine,

That you make me shiver,

When you look into these eyes of mine…

 

Do you know I melt,

Everytime I see you,

That in my heart then is felt,

The urge to never let go of you…

 

Do you know I hold on,

To every memory we’ve made together,

That I tell myself every morn,

‘Don’t worry, maybe tomo you’ll see her…”

 

Do you know how I long,

For even a fleeting glimpse,

That for it I’d walk any distance, short or long,

For that is how much, you I miss…

 

Do you know that I know,

You feel the same way as I do,

In little gestures that you like to show,

Rather than say that line, from ‘I’ to ‘You…’

It’s always a question of what is and what it should be,

What we want and what we have, you and me,

There’s always a dilemma standing between us,

Somehow though, clarity is what causes all the fuss,

If I didn’t know any better, I’d hold your hand in mine,

But the trouble is, I know what’s in your heart and on your mind,

So I stand close and yet seem to be afar,

This door between us, left just slightly ajar,

The closing door, I wanna stop but something in me does deter,

Oh! I wish I was naïve, how I wish, I didn’t know any better…

When I move on from today to tomorrow,

Like I promised, I’ll smile again, without any sorrow,

I believe you, when you say, “You’ll find another,

That one day, it would again be about her…”

I lie down with that hope at 4,

But the call repeats in my head once more,

When I wake up, this behind me, as always I will shove,

But tonight, tonight I feel I am all outta love…

Somethings about love that I don’t understand,

Why I let go, when I should’ve held your hand,

Why I stand in silence and watch you walk away,

When all I’ve ever wanted is for you to stay,

As we drift apart and watch life take it’s course,

I hope things would change to better from worse,

And I hope one day as before I will once again be,

That I’ll find someone to love me back to me…

I lie in bed, dreaming of a dream,

You n me, sitting by a stream,

Sitting at it’s edge, our feet dipped in,

Talking, teasing, playing…n just plain lovin,

As slowly your warmth, envelopes my heart,

Steadily into the dream, I drift apart,

It may just be a dream, too good to be true,

But it’s perfect for me here, you lovin me, me lovin you…

I try sleeping but I just can’t

In my mind and in my heart, just one rant,

Emotions and memories that refuse to blur,

After all this time and it still comes down to her,

I’ve done all I can, tried my very best,

But nothing I can do, can put my heart at rest,

I loved with all I had, honest and pure,

And I’ve got nothing left in me, I can’t love no more…

The silence between us, I cannot bear,

I’m scared, if I looked for you know, you mightn’t be there,

We’ve been a part of each other for so many years,

Washed away each other’s doubts, wiped away each other’s tears,

I know you wanna talk too but I also know you won’t,

I know you wanna call too but I also know you don’t,

I dunno what you need to hear or what I need to have said,

All I know, all day long, I have just your thoughts running in my head…

It's a Long Story!

I have an old friend B who has an old friend M. B and me keep meeting on and off and when we do meet, there's always a ton of things to catch up on... M is around on most occasions that B and me meet up and so he has a fair sketch of who I am...yet, M doesnt exactly know me all that well. We had a fairly engaging conversation on finance when we met up this time around and I guess he felt inspired enough to ask me,
"So dude, from Engineering to Capital Markets...long journey...how and why'd you make it?"
Now, I guess he was expecting some semblance of logic behind my decision to take up Finance but I guess, he doesn't know me well enough...although technically, if he knows B, he should pretty much know me, we're practically mirror images of each other...yet, he erred...
For those of you who do not know me, M would tell you, do not bother looking for logic in anything I do. Everything is done on impulse. M had to bear through a weird and long story (cut short for him, to as short as it possibly could get and yet took a good ten minutes to tell, I think!) Well, what can I say, it's my life! It has to be a long story! You have been warned!