Sunday, September 16, 2007

Obituary...

This used to be the one place i used to come to find myself completely energised and refreshed. No longer do i see the same effect here nor is writing a pleasing task to me anymore. All i have posted in the past few days has been depressing and dark. After long contemplation and about three second thoughts, i reckon the time has come to lay this blog to rest, atleast temporarily till i can find my love for writing again. MBA sucks, as does Mumbai... There i said it...

Well anyways, my blog has started feeling redundant to me. I am getting bored of it now. I don’t see the point anymore. Why write at all? Few bother to read it and with good reason too. How boring is it to read the ramblings of another individual? I think it is time this space found itself an obituary. So here goes:

“Here lies a part of Bikram Snehi’s life. A place where he tried his hand at the concept of writing and was moderately successful. This space has provided a glimpse of his thoughts and his life. Another chapter in his endless search of life and his resolve to live a hundred lives in one. In this space lies one of those hundred lives, his memories and a part of his soul. He shall be dearly missed by some and plain missed by others.”

In short, I wanna move on beyond the blog for now. Again, I might revisit this thought of mine in another few hours and decide to continue writing because it is so much a part of me. Yet, for some unknown reason, I did not find a meaning to continue writing today.

Deeply aggrieved at my own loss,

BIKRAM SNEHI… still mulling over my thoughts…



(I welcome you to post your obituaries here too should you so feel the urge... And please do not try to get me back to writing again, it is inevitable that i shall return but how long before such an eventuality, I am unsure. So until then, RIP...)

14 comments:

Steve said...

Bikram, I haven't gone to Next Blog in months and months. So I think it was more than coincidence that I find it with an obituary posted, plus lyrics to a song that I've just sent to a friend whose lover has left.

I haven't read much of your blog. I'm not going to try to talk you into getting back to writing it. It was something you played with for a while. And you learned things about blogs as tools and about yourself. When you need a blog for something, you'll know how to use it.

Part of me is tempted to tell you to buck up and stop feeling so sorry for yourself. I was in India last November, and even Mumbai, but only for very short transit stays. But I understand life can look overwhelming and unsurmountable amongst all those people, so I'll withhold any judgments.

But the mere fact that you're in a graduate program and writing a blog suggests that you are, at least financially, far above the average in India, in the world even.

Someone who came from a lower middle class background and didn't have the chance to go away to a 'good' college like his friends, told me something that has always stuck in my mind. "It's not how high you get, but how far you go from where you started." Sort of like how you play the cards you've been dealt. Sounds like you have a reasonably good hand, play it well.

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

STEVE:>
hey, well it isnt about being bitter about my life at all. on the contrary, i understand life a lot better with each passing day and strive to live it to the fullest. the only reason my blog has found itself an obituary is because i believe i am a person who is mentally very strong. i have known i have a penchant for writing and as a wannabe writer, the blog was but a logical progression. yet, with time, i have realised that somewhere deep within, i have weakened and have begun blogging about my emotions when i intended on blogging about a plethora of ideas that always floated in my little over-active brain. love, friendships and humour are the building blocks of life and my takes on all three of them are turning negative for several reasons. i intend to take a break and stop the flow of such negative thoughts.
and yes, i have a very good hand dealt out to me. rest assured, i intend to take full advantage of it. i stumble and fall but when i get up, i get up wiser.
for now though, i RIP...
but coming from a sweet and sleepy little town of Pune, i stand by my statement that Mumbai sucks... after all, no place like home...
:)

Steve said...

Sounds like you have it all together, Didn't mean to suggest otherwise. And btw, we actually spent the night in Pune on the way to the Ellora and Ajunta caves. Sorry we didn't have more time there. Take care.

Fangs said...

bikram.. you're an idiot...

when you back?

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

rohan!!!
took you that long to figure it out???
hehehe...
i should be back in a week, in pune and on the blogging scene too...
i dont want this to be a place as dark as yours... hence the break...
i think im getting my act together again.
i am already missing blogging...

cute n confused said...

you cannot live in mumbai and hate it!!!!
i promise u bikram snehi, the day u have to leave this city, you will not want to.
wait and watch
:P
and abt the writing: relax. we girls call these things mood swings
;)

Saurabh said...

Arre awesome.
Good good ... One more less blog to check out now. Phew!

:)

You're undergoing what I call a blogger-block-no-drive-to-write syndrome ...
Happens to everyone ...
You'll be back - I'm sure ...

But for the time being, one less blog to read! YAY !!!

:)

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

LEHAR:> I have grown up in a small and sleepy little town that goes by the name of pune...
Its a place where i have such a close network of friends that we have stuck together since pre-kindergarten... a place to which people have returned to after having spent a miserable few years in cities like melbourne and london... a place where if you were ever feeling low, all you had to do was call up and meet your friends cause even the largest distances are measured in minutes and not kilometers... a place that is surrounded by lush green hills and beautiful little rivers... the place where my family lives and the place i call home...
so, no. i will not have any qualms about leaving mumbai to go back to Pune...
and yes, i have heard of mood swings. this is not one of them. this is more of a period of introspection and soul-searching... i shall be back after i have found the answers to my questions... im already missing blogging a lot as you might gauge simply by the size of this reply...



SAURABH:> My man... yes one less blog for you to follow though gauging from my current flow, i doubt i shall be giving you the respite for long... yet, a much needed break that has left me with a few incredible revelations... for starters i have realised how addicted i am to blogging by now. also, how many people actually follow this space has been a true revelation... never thought recognition could help as much but it really does... pretty glad for it too... ill be back really soon, and all the more wiser for it too...

Fangs said...

CnC has a point, you do seem to be having non stop PMS.
you cranky schmuck!

i like her name abbreviated.
Reminds me of Command and Conquer.

cute n confused said...

i like command and conquer.
thanks fangs (?)
might just change it to tht...
:)
and biks...pune is pune, and home is where the heart is, but all said and done, mumbai is mumbai.
wait n watch dude.
u will NOT want to go back.

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

rohan(fangs13) meet lehar(cutenconfused/commandnconquer??)

and lehar you are hell bent on makin me regret leavin mumbai so i shall make you happy...
ill regret leavin mumbai if i have to go to kolkatta, chennai, delhi or some other godforsaken city... but not if i am going to pune...

cute n confused said...

we'll see!

Fangs said...

you're welcome CnC!

you also remind me of CNC's!
:)

pune rocks!
though i really think i'd like the unending nights of bombay..

its tough to have only two - three places to go to when you're hungry at 3 in the monring.

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

dude, we have atleast 2 or 3 places to go at 3 in the morning...
here, there are literally none... not from here to bandra and back...
pune is superlative...
touchwood...