Sunday, June 27, 2010

When I get caught up in the throes of Life...

To be honest, this is sort of a crib post.
I haven't been enjoying myself at work too much lately. When I think of working, it's always with some bigger things in mind, with my eye on the target out in the distance...which sort of leads me to start losing focus on the little things right in front of me. Like the petty politics in the office. It's beyond me and I can't really cope much with be honest, in the past week, I did seriously consider looking for options elsewhere but then, thankfully, along came the weekend.
I spent some time doing things I really like...took a long walk, spent an hour sitting down at the bridge gazing at the sunset behind the clouds and got my thoughts sorted out.
I now feel a little embarrassed at being overwhelmed by the burden of lesser mortals. I seemed to have forgotten why I was where I was...funny how I can settle into a cocoon and get very comfortable there too.
But then, I took time late at night to remind myself I am not the one to be working all my life chasing money in a 9 to 5 job. I'm someone who is a little different, someone who derives more joy from the people around him than the material comforts surrounding him...and then it hit me hard...I've been taking so much time to chase money, I've started compromising on the time I give to the people I love...and I realised, I might be good at what I am doing but I am not at my best doing it...I am at my best doing this - closing my eyes, traveling to that world I call my own and then coming up with a rhyme at will...especially for her...

In your eyes,if you find,no beads of sleep,
Find my memories,embedded deep,
Heart,mind,body,soul and all that is me,
Are bound in your love and will keep you company,
On forlorn nights,if you think we're too far apart,
Listen to the wind,for I whisper 'We'll always be close, no matter how far...'


Sneha said...

About office politics :-it will not leave you till u retire. But you did the right thing by shifting your focus to something that u love and enjoy that is the way to b happy and keep others happy.

And about your poem:- No doubt its awesome as usual.:)

have a nice day.:)

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

Yeah, work life is complicated...dont plan on extending my stay in this world for too long so lets see where life takes me next!
And thank you for your comments for all these years! You always manage to bring me a smile with them!

Ria said...

I am leaving out the office bit, coz i dont think its worth commenting! :P

About the poem, i loved it. :)

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

Hehehe...I wouldn't blame you at all for not commenting!

Bluebutterfly said...

It is so easy to get lost in the madness nah. This post made me think and then smile...
Ah well, the eternal cribber like your crib post !

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

I think you just liked the poem!
You know what, I've been out of office for 6 whole days now and I havent written anything yet! THough I did a lotta three of Jhumpa Lahiri's books, re-read the Bartimaeus trilogy, read Good to Great and one more that I cant recall right now...
I really need to get into a profession that gives me time to read and write...I'm in the wrong place.