My Endless Conflict (contd.)

You know there are three kinds of people in this world- there are those that dream and live their lives chasing them, then there are those who are practical and look for realistic and practical solutions to everything in life, and then, somewhere between the two, confused as can be and the master of indecision, is Bikram…
Let us talk about the dreamers- This group of people are the most wonderful people on the face of the planet. Their conviction in whatever they seek to accomplish is unparalleled and they are perhaps the most driven people on this planet. Defying logic and long-held norms, they believe in doing what they feel is right deep within and are those who live every moment of their lives because they aren’t the ones who will be caught wondering what if. If it is out there, it is out to be theirs. There is so much you can learn from them, living for the moment, not being overly concerned about the future and believing in the power of dreams. It doesn’t matter how outlandish the desire, if it can be done by them, they will pursue it no matter what. And that must be a good quality else nothing in this world could ever have been accomplished. Life would have been stagnant, life would have been boring, life would have been monotonous and life would have been… no… actually, life would not have been what it is!
The realists are the ones that keep the world in check. These are the practical people who will always try to do things in a manner, which would have a very high probability of success. These people look for practical solutions to every problem. The people who have their feet firmly rooted on ground and are not expansive with their expectations from life. These people will compromise on their wants and desires and lead a very content life. There is much to be learnt from them too, living for a future, having realistic goals of where you can be in life, being prepared for failure and having a contingency plan. And these too must be good attributes else the world would be a haphazard place with no controls in place, a world without order, a world without logic, a world full of commotion. Life again would not have been what it is!
And where do I stand? Somewhere in between. Somewhere wondering what is the right thing to do. Somewhere chasing my dreams and wondering if I am doing the right thing. Somewhere being a realist and sacrificing my desires and dreams for the joy of those around me. Somewhere making compromises with my heart because my mind takes precedence. Somewhere where I never wonder what if, I just ask myself why I did not. Somewhere where I do not understand which path I must choose. Somewhere battling within myself and always wondering what is the right thing to do. I am talking about my career, my aspirations, my friends, my family and of course, love…and at the crossroads of where I stand, wondering which path to choose. If only I had someone to stand by me and help me with the decisions. Then again, it is a question of wishes being horses… Ah! Life… or something like it…